Confession.

Menyenderkan tubuh sejenak di malam hari selepas anak dan suami tertidur, sambil membaca kembali beberapa halaman buku parenting, lalu acak melihat internet dan mencari pilihan sekolah yang cocok untuk anak, lalu coba merenungkan pencapaian apa yang anakku saat ini–lemah dan lebihnya, juga diriku sendiri sebagai mama.

3 tahun lebih 3 bulan, saya menjadi ibunya. Saya sadar akan beberapa kekurangan saya sampai titik ini :

  1. Saya terlampau khawatir akan perkembangan dan pengasuhan dirinya, terlalu banyak hal dan referensi yang saya cari, hingga saya sulit mencerna dan memutuskan dan percaya akan diri untuk mengasuh dengan gaya yang sesuai dengan kebutuhan diri anak saya. Banyak hal pro kontra yang kamu bisa dapatkan dari berbagai sumber : mulai dari orang tua sendiri, internet, peer kita, dokter anak, suami, tetangga —-tapi ini membuat saya merasa malah bisa menjadi potensi distraksi kamu untuk enjoy every moment dengan anakmu–serta menggunakan insting, feeling, dan rasa kasihmu sebagai Ibu bagi anakmu sendiri, untuk men decide mana yang tepat untuk anakmu. Dan ini membuat saya sadar, bahwa saya perlu lebih percaya pada insting dan hati saya sendiri, meskipun mendengarkan masukan lain juga perlu.
  2. I forget the most important thing : DONT try to be perfect mom, but remember to always try our best to be Her Real Mom every single day. Yang selalu passionate dan cheering her every little development, dirinya apa adanya. Buat pengalaman saya , jangan terlalu sibuk dengan masak dan urusan rumah saja, tapi mencoba cari cara untuk hadir bersamanya setiap hari.
  3. Saya cenderung memaksakan dan sibuk mencari “which method that suits to her” tapi lupa mempersiapkan diri saya sendiri sebagai pendampingnya.  Saya cukup yakin bahwa metode Montessori lah yang tepat untuk dirinya misalkan. Lalu saya mencoba mencari ini dan itu tentang bagaimana saya bisa menerapkan montessori dan mencoba mengembangkan kemandiriannya, lalu saya menemukan beberapa kendala : kadang apa yang kita bawakan kepadanya juga belum tepat saatnya, belum menarik minatnya. Kadang saya tidak mem follow up progress/ perkembangan dirinya dan menghargai prosesnya–malah terlalu sibuk dengan output ideal yang saya sendiri harapkan. Kadang saya hanya berharap “i wish this material would make her occupied or get busy so i could do anything else”. Kadang saya menemukan penolakan dirinya. Kadang saya malah terlalu sibuk mencoba mencari ‘materi’ dengan surfing di internet dan berakhir pada kesibukan untuk membandingkan pencapaian anak lain dengan anak sendiri. That’s ONE BIG SILLY THING : for being unfocus most of the time. Dan..nyatanya saya lupa untuk mempersiapkan diri untuk lebih disiplin, tetatur, konsisten, dan sabar, serta menghormati setiap proses. Nyatanya sejak awal, saya mencoba mengajarkan berbagai hal sesuai pendekatan montessori, sometimes tanpa memahami periode sensitif dari anak saya, dan membawakannya tidak dengan konsisten dan sabar. So, bagaimana kamu bisa mengajar anakmu untuk bersikap sabar dan konsisten jika dirimu tidak melakukannya juga?  Saat ini saya merasa mandek dalam mencari cara — “finding my wayback to be her real and true mom for her”. Namun dalam menjalani peran kita menjadi Ibu dan mengasuh anak, saya tahu tidak bisa ada kata “break dulu” atau “resign”  kan? yang ada adalah bagaimana saya bawa hasil refleksi ini sebagai semangat untuk memulai langkah dan gaya baru yang lebih baik untuk mengubah diri lebih dahulu sebelum dapat mendampingi dan mengasuh anak saya dengan lebih baik lagi.

So, dalam beberapa hari ke depan, rencana mengenai diri saya yang ingin saya jalankan adalah :

  1. Lebih konsisten dalam merawat diri saya sendiri : berdoa, lari, yoga, makan, menulis dengan lebih teratur dan nyata selama 21 hari kedepan. Saya  berharap ini menjadi langkah awal untuk bisa jadi better mama.
  2. Lebih banyak tersenyum dan bersyukur.
  3. Realitis dan terukur dalam membuat rencana.

Mungkin kalau dibaca 2  poin di atas kurang nyambung dengan problem yang ada di atas, tapi buat saya sebenarnya, justru saya lah yang perlu di revisi sebelum going back to the track untuk mengasuh anak. Anyway, ujung dari semua ini adalah tantangan bagi saya untuk belajar konsisten, tegas, dan merawat diri saya sendiri juga sebelum saya mengajarkan dan memberi contoh yang sama yang saya mau putri saya dapat lakukan. Let’s do and see.

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Why Generation Y Yuppies Are Unhappy ?

I found this article, and i’m getting more understand about myself, my generation, Y generation.Many thanks to the writer.

i hope yourself too, reader. Happy reading : )

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Say hi to Lucy.

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Lucy is part of Generation Y, the generation born between the late 1970s and the mid 1990s. She’s also part of a yuppie culture that makes up a large portion of Gen Y.

I have a term for yuppies in the Gen Y age group — I call them Gen Y Protagonists & Special Yuppies, or GYPSYs. A GYPSY is a unique brand of yuppie, one who thinks they are the main character of a very special story.

So Lucy’s enjoying her GYPSY life, and she’s very pleased to be Lucy. Only issue is this one thing:

Lucy’s kind of unhappy.

To get to the bottom of why, we need to define what makes someone happy or unhappy in the first place. It comes down to a simple formula:

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It’s pretty straightforward — when the reality of someone’s life is better than they had expected, they’re happy. When reality turns out to be worse than the expectations, they’re unhappy.

To provide some context, let’s start by bringing Lucy’s parents into the discussion:

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Lucy’s parents were born in the ’50s — they’re Baby Boomers. They were raised by Lucy’s grandparents, members of the G.I. Generation, or “the Greatest Generation,” who grew up during the Great Depression and fought in World War II, and were most definitely not GYPSYs.

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Lucy’s Depression Era grandparents were obsessed with economic security and raised her parents to build practical, secure careers. They wanted her parents’ careers to have greener grass than their own, and Lucy’s parents were brought up to envision a prosperous and stable career for themselves. Something like this:

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They were taught that there was nothing stopping them from getting to that lush, green lawn of a career, but that they’d need to put in years of hard work to make it happen.

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After graduating from being insufferable hippies, Lucy’s parents embarked on their careers. As the ’70s, ’80s, and ’90s rolled along, the world entered a time of unprecedented economic prosperity. Lucy’s parents did even better than they expected to. This left them feeling gratified and optimistic.

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With a smoother, more positive life experience than that of their own parents, Lucy’s parents raised Lucy with a sense of optimism and unbounded possibility. And they weren’t alone. Baby Boomers all around the country and world told their Gen Y kids that they could be whatever they wanted to be, instilling the special protagonist identity deep within their psyches.

This left GYPSYs feeling tremendously hopeful about their careers, to the point where their parents’ goals of a green lawn of secure prosperity didn’t really do it for them. A GYPSY-worthy lawn has flowers.

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This leads to our first fact about GYPSYs:

GYPSYs Are Wildly Ambitious

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The GYPSY needs a lot more from a career than a nice green lawn of prosperity and security. The fact is, a green lawn isn’t quite exceptional or unique enough for a GYPSY. Where the Baby Boomers wanted to live The American Dream, GYPSYs want to live Their Own Personal Dream.

Cal Newport points out that “follow your passion” is a catchphrase that has only gotten going in the last 20 years, according to Google’s Ngram viewer, a tool that shows how prominently a given phrase appears in English print over any period of time. The same Ngram viewer shows that the phrase “a secure career” has gone out of style, just as the phrase “a fulfilling career” has gotten hot.

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To be clear, GYPSYs want economic prosperity just like their parents did — they just also want to be fulfilled by their career in a way their parents didn’t think about as much.

But something else is happening too. While the career goals of Gen Y as a whole have become much more particular and ambitious, Lucy has been given a second message throughout her childhood as well:

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This would probably be a good time to bring in our second fact about GYPSYs:

GYPSYs Are Delusional

“Sure,” Lucy has been taught, “everyone will go and get themselves some fulfilling career, but I am unusually wonderful and as such, my career and life path will stand out amongst the crowd.” So on top of the generation as a whole having the bold goal of a flowery career lawn, each individual GYPSY thinks that he or she is destined for something even better —

A shiny unicorn on top of the flowery lawn. 

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So why is this delusional? Because this is what all GYPSYs think, which defies the definition of special:

spe-cial | ‘speSHel |
adjective
better, greater, or otherwise different from what is usual.

 

According to this definition, most people are not special — otherwise “special” wouldn’t mean anything.

Even right now, the GYPSYs reading this are thinking, “Good point… but I actually am one of the few special ones” — and this is the problem.

A second GYPSY delusion comes into play once the GYPSY enters the job market. While Lucy’s parents’ expectation was that many years of hard work would eventually lead to a great career, Lucy considers a great career an obvious given for someone as exceptional as she, and for her it’s just a matter of time and choosing which way to go. Her pre-workforce expectations look something like this:

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Unfortunately, the funny thing about the world is that it turns out to not be that easy of a place, and the weird thing about careers is that they’re actually quite hard. Great careers take years of blood, sweat and tears to build — even the ones with no flowers or unicorns on them — and even the most successful people are rarely doing anything that great in their early or mid-20s.

But GYPSYs aren’t about to just accept that.

Paul Harvey, a University of New Hampshire professor and GYPSY expert, has researched this, finding that Gen Y has “unrealistic expectations and a strong resistance toward accepting negative feedback,” and “an inflated view of oneself.” He says that “a great source of frustration for people with a strong sense of entitlement is unmet expectations. They often feel entitled to a level of respect and rewards that aren’t in line with their actual ability and effort levels, and so they might not get the level of respect and rewards they are expecting.”

For those hiring members of Gen Y, Harvey suggests asking the interview question, “Do you feel you are generally superior to your coworkers/classmates/etc., and if so, why?” He says that “if the candidate answers yes to the first part but struggles with the ‘why,’ there may be an entitlement issue. This is because entitlement perceptions are often based on an unfounded sense of superiority and deservingness. They’ve been led to believe, perhaps through overzealous self-esteem building exercises in their youth, that they are somehow special but often lack any real justification for this belief.”

And since the real world has the nerve to consider merit a factor, a few years out of college Lucy finds herself here:

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Lucy’s extreme ambition, coupled with the arrogance that comes along with being a bit deluded about one’s own self-worth, has left her with huge expectations for even the early years out of college. And her reality pales in comparison to those expectations, leaving her “reality – expectations” happy score coming out at a negative.

And it gets even worse. On top of all this, GYPSYs have an extra problem that applies to their whole generation:

GYPSYs Are Taunted

Sure, some people from Lucy’s parents’ high school or college classes ended up more successful than her parents did. And while they may have heard about some of it from time to time through the grapevine, for the most part they didn’t really know what was going on in too many other peoples’ careers.

Lucy, on the other hand, finds herself constantly taunted by a modern phenomenon:Facebook Image Crafting.

Social media creates a world for Lucy where A) what everyone else is doing is very out in the open, B) most people present an inflated version of their own existence, and C) the people who chime in the most about their careers are usually those whose careers (or relationships) are going the best, while struggling people tend not to broadcast their situation. This leaves Lucy feeling, incorrectly, like everyone else is doing really well, only adding to her misery:

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So that’s why Lucy is unhappy, or at the least, feeling a bit frustrated and inadequate. In fact, she’s probably started off her career perfectly well, but to her, it feels very disappointing.

Here’s my advice for Lucy:

1) Stay wildly ambitious. The current world is bubbling with opportunity for an ambitious person to find flowery, fulfilling success. The specific direction may be unclear, but it’ll work itself out — just dive in somewhere.

2) Stop thinking that you’re special. The fact is, right now, you’re not special. You’re another completely inexperienced young person who doesn’t have all that much to offer yet. You can become special by working really hard for a long time.

3) Ignore everyone else. Other people’s grass seeming greener is no new concept, but in today’s image crafting world, other people’s grass looks like a glorious meadow. The truth is that everyone else is just as indecisive, self-doubting, and frustrated as you are, and if you just do your thing, you’ll never have any reason to envy others.

this article posted in Hufftington Post,2013.

 http://www.huffingtonpost.com/wait-but-why/generation-y-unhappy_b_3930620.html